With finals near, deciding/deeply researching Universities I’m interested in transferring to–getting my parents to agree with that choice, searching for a new job, plus acting and fulfilling my need for creative creating; it’s been a stressful couple of weeks, and yesterday I finally blew up. Ok wait a sec…I’m stopping myself there with that complaint filled rant. I just realized something, when I began to write this shit out whatever’s been on my mind, bothering me; as much as it seems so crazy in my head at the moment, really doesn’t have to be that way. And complaining about it won’t make it go away or make the situation any better-it’ll only add to my stress, so I’m making a choice.
It honestly is a choice we can all make, the one thing you have complete control over is yourself, and how you choose to feel, react, act, and present yourself. Do you choose to nourish your mind, body, and soul with positivity, awareness, and mindfulness. Or do you choose to deprive your mind, body, and soul of the things that will liberate and transform you into your true self. The alteration of this lifestyle is so simple, yet so many of us hold back from allowing ourselves to transform and transcend. It’s like we secretly enjoy being stressed. Oh wait, just did some quick research to see if we can become addicted to stress and found this: “Both emotional and physical stress activate our central nervous system, causing a natural high” well damn. In that case, it’s all about how you handle that stress. Energy is energy, whether it stem from a negative or positive foundation, you have the will to apply it in a way that’ll benefit you.
Re-discovering what’s important to you, self-exploration, being as clear, direct, and transparent as possible with yourself helps immensely. When you are in sync with yourself you truly see and feel how every single thing is intimately connected. We become vastly conscious emotionally, mentally, and physically. We evolve into compassionate, thoughtful, considerate, observant, respectful, friendly, kind people. You owe it to yourself to emerge as the best you.
It all seems so minuscule now, any problem I have. Even comparative to what I’ve dealt with in the past at a much younger naive age. Learning what many learn much later in their lives, matured me, it grounded and stabilized me into the person I continue to become. A deep boundless soul. I’ve always been curious, skeptical, and dire to understand since a young age. To understand the darkest parts of life to the most shallow. We all have different thresholds for what we can handle, and let’s just say I can handle an abundance. I have to remind myself how far I’ve come even if I’m not exactly where I want to be. Everything I’m doing is to create a better me, to prosper. And for my journey, however long, I feel incredibly grateful.
Stay kind and curious, babes.